I have been back on my meds for close to a year now. There are times that I am so glad that I am on them. I can tell they work for me. There are other times that I wonder if I could handle going off of them. Sometimes these times are within the same week. Today is one of those days that I know I can’t go off them. In fact, I wonder if I shouldn’t up my dosage.
Today was a rough day. The morning wasn’t too bad. Warren had a great nap. This afternoon things went downhill. Warren refused to nap. He finally went down at 4 and slept for only 45 minutes. Laura took a 3 hour nap. She was ok this afternoon, but she didn’t eat her entire cupcake. Once Robert got home, she turned. She just wanted to lay on the loveseat. I went to work out. I exercised for an hour. When I returned home, she hadn’t moved. I took her temp and it was 103.1. Thankfully the ibuprofen kicked in and dropped her temp to 101. I got home around 7:30. It was a long half hour before the kids were in bed. Now our dinner is on the grill, I am working on this post, and watching Bones.
Time to enjoy the quiet. 
I’ve been searching for some inspiration for tonight’s post. There are MANY writing challenges out there. I just didn’t strike a chord with any of the topics suggested tonight. I think I just need to let my fingers go and see what comes out.
Today was a good day at work for me. We had great students working. I was able to work on my project (mapping in all the books to the classes). We had some nice conversation going, which lead to some odd topics, but fun nonetheless. Coming home tonight wasn’t as much fun. I don’t want to get into too many details, but there was friction between Robert and me as well as the kids and me. In the end, I was able to workout for 45 minutes, the lawn is halfway done, baths were done tonight, and the kids are in bed sleeping. I have a long to-do list for tomorrow, but I’ll do what I can. Robert and I are going out on a date Friday night, so we want the house cleaned up a bit. It just plain needs it whether we’d be going out or not. Saturday I’ll be heading to the middle of nowhere Wisconsin for Mandy’s birthday party. I’ll return home on Monday.
I waver on whether or not I care about who reads this blog. I know deep down I do it for myself. I find it easier to type than to write it all out by hand. I can also do it while surfing around the web or chilling. Part of me wonders who reads this? I don’t list it with search engines. Partly because it is personal, partly because I don’t feel like I have anything worthy of putting out there. There is so much backlash it seems about people thinking they are a great writer just because they have a blog. I don’t pretend that I’m a great writer. Most of my postings are a recap of my day. To most people, that’d be boring. I enjoy reading other blogs. There are some that have crazy stories. I don’t feel like that is me at all. That all being said, I think in a way I do wish people would read this. It would be nice to get some feedback at times or comments. I see blog posts where the author throws a question out and there are 30 replies and a great conversations starts. I doubt that will happen here. ever.
Well, tomorrow is a day full of cleaning, working out, and a chiropractor appointment. Hopefully the kids will sleep well and be in good moods tomorrow.
I love the bedtime routine with Laura. I get her tucked into bed. Then together we do the Lord’s Prayer. Following that is blessings. I just let her take the lead there. It always starts out, “Mommy, and Daddy, Warren, and me. Grandma, Papa, Grandma Joni, Grandma Kathy, Grandpa John.” From there, different people get added in. On nights that she is tired, she will add one person then repeat the grandparents. Other nights we go through all of the aunts, uncles, and cousins and then add in the kids at daycare and Helen’s family. After prayers and blessings, we have three things that are always said:
- Goodnight
- Sweet Dreams
- I love you
I admit that I don’t always take the time that I should with our bedtime routine. There are nights that I am tired or frustrated with her that I just want to make it go as fast as possible. When I don’t do the routine with her, things just feel off. I really enjoy it when we talk about her day together a little bit or what is coming up the next day.
Home has a different meaning to many people. To some it is their house. To some it is where their family is. “Home is where the heart is” is a common saying. To me, it is all the above. Robert and I lived in a house together before we were married, and for a year after we were married. It never truly felt like home to me. It was just a house that we shared. Now, I truly have my own home. This is the house that we picked out together. It is where we started our family. It is where we brought each of our children home from the hospital after they were born. It is where I want to be most often.
In addition to home here with Robert, I have home in DeForest. My childhood home will also be home to me. As I get older, the two homes have taken on their own special meanings.
This brings up a question that I’m not sure I am ready to explore the answer to. If we move, how long will it take for the new house to become home? Will this house always be home to me? I know that I’m putting a lot of myself into painting, finishing the basement, and other home projects.
I really don’t know how to describe my current mood. I’m not exactly happy, not sad either. Just kinda of blah, but yet not. I’m a little tired, little frustrated, hungry, starting to get down on myself, and overall worn out. It really is hard to explain. My day overall was pretty good. I stayed home from church this morning with Warren. We decided that since he hadn’t slept well, he really needed a morning home so he can get back on schedule and get the much needed sleep. I put him down at 9, just as Robert and Laura were leaving. He slept until noon. I was able to watch Bones and get caught up. This afternoon while Laura and Robert napped, Warren and I watched the Biggest Loser. Ok, so he didn’t watch as much. I should feel rested and ready to start another week, but I am feeling the opposite. I feel like I should have gone and worked out this afternoon. I feel like I should have done some housework instead of sit on my butt and watch tv. The kids are now in bed. Robert and I are just about ready to start eating dinner. Hopefully we can catch up on some more recorded tv. It should help that the seasons are ending so we won’t have much for new recordings for a while.
I am back home once again. Robert met us in Menomonie at Perkins for lunch. We did a little bit of shopping at Fleet Farm afterwards. Warren needed the time to run around too. Both kids fell asleep on the way home from Menomonie. We got groceries tonight, and now the kids are in bed. Tomorrow is Laura’s last day of Sunday school for this year. Hard to believe we are here already. Hopefully we can get outside and play tomorrow afternoon. I need to get up to New Richmond and workout.
Here’s something fun…
10 Fun Facts About Me:
- I love 80s music.
- I hate doing household chores.
- I love having a clean house. (figure that one out along with #2)
- I have managed to lose 42 pounds all on my own.
- I love the color red.
- Both of my kids were named before I was even married.
- I enjoy cooking.
- I often find myself confused on religion, religious beliefs, and the church.
- I probably watch way too much tv.
- I can’t imagine my life any other way than it is now.
I missed posting yet again. Oh well. Yesterday was a nonstop day. Warren didn’t even take his morning nap. He ended up only napping for 2 hours in the afternoon. He went hard until 8pm. I don’t know how the little boy can do it. Laura also had a big day. She did nap for 3 hours, but she was super tired by bedtime as well.
Today I am meeting up with Trish in Madison to pass along some baby gear. I’m looking forward to getting rid of it, and she’s looking forward to getting it. We are going to enjoy a lunch together without children! Not sure if that is allowed, but we’ll try it. 
Progress at home is going well. I think most of the mudding and taping is just about done. I’m getting anxious to get working on finishing our bedroom. I can’t wait for us to have our own room again! Time to give the kids some attention!
I have a few shows that I can list as favorites. Here they are in no particular order:
- Body of Proof
- Amazing Race
- Biggest Loser
- NCIS
- How I Met Your Mother
- Leverage
I love each of these shows for various reasons. The Biggest Loser is what motivates me with my weight loss. Amazing Race is great to see different parts of the world. The laughs in HIMYM are great. The drama/crime involved in NCIS, Leverage, and Body of Proof keep my mind stimulated. I am having trouble writing this post because Body of Proof is one (recorded).
Today was a good day with the kids. They played all morning. This afternoon they took awesome naps. Warren slept from about 1:15-4:15. Laura slept from 1-4:45. I worked out for 30 minutes over at Peg’s on the elliptical machine. The rest of the time I was enjoying reading a book. Time to get my attention back to Body of Proof. I’ll be posting again tomorrow.
I was so busy yesterday I didn’t get a chance to post for my 30 day challenge. I left at 9am for DeForest. We got here around 1:00. I was hoping that we could have made it all the way without stopping, but that didn’t happen. We still made good time though. John was here for a little while, so it was good to see him. I was able to get both kids down for a nap around 2:30. The rest of the afternoon/evening we were outside. The kids slept really well last night.
Today is a quiet day. I’m not sure what is all on the agenda. Hopefully I can do another post tonight so I’ll still have 30 posts in 30 days.
I wanted to continue my 30 day challenge. I don’t have much to post today. Work went well. We had lots of people returning books late. I have continued to work on mapping books in for the fall semester. Hopefully I should be close to finishing that by Friday of next week. Tomorrow I head to DeForest for the remainder of the week. Tomorrow morning will be a rush to get things packed. Time to get to bed so I can be rested for the drive down. I will try to post more interesting things soon, I promise!