I’m quickly running out of day, and I realized that I haven’t posted for today yet. We went to the 8am church service this morning. Sunday school was Recitation Sunday, where the kids recite their memory work. Laura did a great job, of course. :) Once home, we did lunch. Robert got the lawn mower up and running with a little bit of help from me. He started the mowing, but then I finished it while he and the kids napped. This afternoon we went to Roxy’s graduation party then got groceries. Laura and Warren each had their first rides on the lawn mower. Warren went first and was smiling huge the entire time. Laura almost didn’t go. She was scared of how loud it was. We convinced her to wear the ear muffs to muffle the sound. Once she was on, she did great. I even let her steer it, so she felt pretty special. Such an exciting day, I know. Hopefully tomorrow will provide more insight.
Oh yeah, one last thing. I have Skype now. Hopefully it will work well for the kids and I to chat with Mom.
Book return is done at work. 46 hours in this week. The paycheck will be nice. :) This week I am working only one day (Monday). Wednesday morning we take off to go visit Mom & Dad. Laura will probably spend a lot of time with Kyla, the neighbor girl. I’m glad that there is someone close to her age to play with.
This past week was a challenging one. Wednesday morning Laura got sick. She is still fighting a little bit of the bug. Thankfully she is in good spirits and you wouldn’t know she was fighting something. The kids really missed having me around this week. They are both a bit clingy whenever I am home. This makes for a challenging time for me. Thankfully next week will get them their time with me that they want. Unfortunately, they will then be missing their daddy, since he is staying home.
I honestly don’t have much to say tonight. I am really tired. I’m about ready to call it a night.
Where do I see myself in 10 years? This question used to be so easy to answer. When I was in high school, I answered with graduated from college, married, have 2 kids, and teaching in my own classroom. Well, 3 out of 4 isn’t bad. Now that I’m 28, the question is harder. I don’t have those BIG milestones anymore. College was such an easy milestone to throw out there. In 10 years, Laura will be on the verge of turning 14 and Warren will be almost 12. I imagine lots of drama with a teenage daughter. I don’t foresee a lot of drama with Warren. Hopefully I will still be working, possibly full-time then. I would like to still be in this house. By then we’d have a deck, the basement is fully finished, and the yard is filled with grass and not just weeds in the backyard. I doubt that I will go back to school for anything. I imagine that Robert will still be working at the university. Peaches and Nat may or may not be around at that point. They’d be pretty old (nearly 17). I’d like to have a dog. As hard as it is to accept, I imagine that my two closest friends will be about an hour’s drive from me, possibly more. Of course, that won’t deter us from seeing each other. :) I hope that we can be taking family vacations, and having the kids see some interesting places that they learn about in school.
Well, I am not going to have the energy for this future if I don’t get some sleep. I work 6.5 hours tomorrow, then I can say book return is over. Good night world.
Recently, I’ve seen a lot of 30 day challenges posted on Facebook and on other blogs. The point is to blog about a certain topic for 30 days straight. Some people just post once a week and work their way down the list. I haven’t found a 30 day challenge that I feel is just right for me. Many start out with just introduce yourself. Well, this is my blog. I have an about me section. If you have found it, you already know what I’d put in there. Several include posting pictures. I know it isn’t rocket science or difficult to post pictures, but I have trouble finding the time to take pictures, resize them, and then post. Excuses, I know. So instead of following a certain list, I’m just going to make a point of posting something every day for 30 days. I may take snippets from the various lists floating around. So consider this post one, the introduction to it.
I am working 10-4:30 on Saturday. I am really hoping that the weather get a little better soon. I have the itch to get outside and mow the yard. I know it is going to be expensive this summer (figure about $10 each time in gas), but our yard is looking bad. Right now we have so much rain it isn’t even an option of getting out there. I am wanting to start working on our yard and making it a bit more attractive.
I had originally planned on going and working out this morning, but I’m not sure that will happen. Robert is currently napping. Warren had a bit of a rough night, and Robert was up with him.
Yesterday Robert ended up staying home with the kids. Laura woke up at 3:30am puking. Thankfully it was only a little bit on her pillow. She puked again at 6am. That was the last of it. She was still not feeling well the rest of the day. Today she is feeling a little bit better, but still running a slight fever. Hopefully she’ll be ok to go to Helen’s tomorrow.
Time for me to cuddle with Warren. He has his Nuk and brought his blanket over. The hints are less than subtle now.
Today is about celebrating mothers. Whether it be married, single, or deceased, we celebrate our moms. I would even include the single fathers out there since they do the role of both mom and dad. I know everyone out there says that they have the best mom. Well, I am among those people. I truly couldn’t ask for a better mom. She will talk to me on the phone for hours. I know I can talk about anything with her. She is one of my best friends. She has supported me through some of my darkest times as well as my brightest. She was here both times I brought a baby home for the first time. I don’t know if I would have survived my first days with Laura without her guidance and support. I know she isn’t perfect and made mistakes. We all do. I just want to publicly say Thank you, Mom. It doesn’t seem like enough, but I want you to know that I appreciate you and all that you have done for me.
I’m feeling a bit like a failure today. I got sucked into my new Nora Roberts book. I didn’t do much today except read. I didn’t make it to work out like I had planned. I didn’t get dinner out to thaw early in the afternoon like I had planned. I didn’t get the house cleaned up like planned. Well, you get the point. I feel so disappointed in myself. I should have done more today. I feel like I should have been more productive. I don’t think he’s upset with me, but Robert hasn’t said many words to me at all tonight. I know he just gets quiet at times, but it’s hard to not project my negative feelings I’m having about myself onto him having them about me. sigh. I just don’t know. I’m feeling a bit “off” today/tonight. Life is getting to be overwhelming. I feel like I just can’t be good enough.
I have been away much longer than I intended. Between work, Dance Theatre, and trying to stay sane, the blog became neglected. Last week I worked 5 days. I saw the kids between 5:30 (or whenever they woke up) and 7:15 Tuesday through Friday. The rest of the day was spent in River Falls. It was hard being away from them so much. I didn’t realize just how much I missed doing the bedtime routine until I finally had a chance to do it with them again last night. Dance Theatre went pretty well. Saturday and Sunday I felt like I was living in a fog. I even took a nap each day. I think the past two weeks caught up to me. I am doing better today, but still not fully recovered.
Work in the basement has been going well. I believe that all the framing is complete. We have an inspection on Wednesday morning. The sheetrock will be delivered on Thursday. I am going to take pictures tonight of the progress. Hopefully I’ll have the energy to update here. I will say it’s been nice today being home most of the day with the kids getting back into our routine.
This morning we had Warren’s appointment with the pediatric urologist. We had an 8:20am appointment in downtown St. Paul. The appointment went quick. We are going to use a steroid cream for a month to see if that helps things. We go back in a month for a follow up appointment. The doctor did tell us the cream has about a 90% chance of working.
Time to get some dinner going. Hopefully I won’t neglect this as badly anymore.
Progress has been made.
Progress #1
I have made the commitment to join a gym. I am now a member at The Centre in New Richmond. So far I have gone 4 times since joining less than one week ago. I am enjoying trying out different classes and different equipment.
Progress #2
As a result of joining the gym, I have broken through my plateau. I am no longer in the 180s! This is huge for me. I can’t remember the last time I weighed this little. I will have to look in my cancer binder to see if I was even this small while going through my treatments.
Progress #3
The basement is totally empty. The last time it was this empty was when about 5 minutes before we moved in. Ever since then we’ve always had piles of boxes.
Progress #4
We have studs up to finish off the walls on 2 of the walls. I am so excited to take this step. When we bought the house with the unfinished basement, I was so afraid that we would become one of those people that says that they are going to finish the basement, and yet it remains unfinished 10 or 15 years later. It is now a reality that we will not become one of those people. We also won’t let the basement just sit unfinished. We will keep putting money away so we can continue to finish the trim work and the flooring. Just knowing we are getting close is amazing.
Granted, most people would see today as my day off. I see it as my day to get things done. I still have to care for my two kids and get things done around the house. Here was my day:
7:30 called Mom to talk for a little bit
8:45 start packing car full of Goodwill donations
9:10 First trip to Hudson
10:00 Second trip to Hudson
11:00 Return home, play with kids, clean out a little more from the basement
12:30 Start lunch
1:00 nap time (my favorite!)
1:00 Start laundry
1:30 Call to preregister Warren for his urology appointment
1:45 Email to get bus transportation for next year
2:00 Switch laundry
3:30 Warren wakes up from his nap
3;45 attempt to fold laundry with the “help” of Warren
4:10 Laura wakes up from her nap
4;30 Get kids a snack, watch Looney Tunes, update blog
During all of this I have been chatting online with my mother-in-law at times and my friend (who is at work). The funny part is, I feel like I should have done more today. The upstairs of the house is a bit messy. My goal is to have the basement cleaned up, and then I can work the upstairs.
