I have 4 more days of work, and then I am done for a while again. I am starting to get regular headaches that are just awful. I don’t know what is causing them, but they really need to go away. I am trying to figure out what it says about me that I can stay home with 2 young kids but working outside the home just totally wears me down. Warren hasn’t been sleeping well either, so I’m sure that isn’t helping. He didn’t nap much today so I’m hoping that will work in our favor tonight. I work Monday through Thursday this week. Friday morning I am going to my usual morning coffee. I really missed the girls last week. I won’t be there the following week either. I am heading down to Mom and Dad’s for a few days. Grandma and Grandpa are coming up to visit John, so I thought that I’d go down and they could see the kids again. Warren is getting better with riding in the car. This will be a true test of me doing it alone again.
This has been a good weekend. Yesterday I went over to Mandy’s to work on scrapbooks. I started at Laura’s first birthday party and ended the day at Christmas 2008. I have a couple of pages that are new favorites. I actually am tempted to pull one out and frame it I love it so much. Today we went to the 8:00am church service. We were late, but that’s ok. I stayed for the adult Bible study while Robert had both kids in the nursery. Warren was sleeping and Laura was playing. I think Robert would have liked to take Warren’s lead. After church we went up to the in-laws. It was a nice visit. Kathy got to hold Warren a bit. Laura was SUPER shy at first, but eventually got comfortable. She was having lots of fun by the time we left.
On a more personal note, I have really started thinking more about what we are discussing in the Bible studay. The entire study is going deeper into The Lord’s Prayer. Today’s emphasis was on asking for God’s will to be done on earth as it is in heaven. We thought about what it truly meant. Something that has stuck with me today, was a line in our book about asking God to invade our souls and lives. Am I truly ready for such a radical event? Could I handle it? As much as I would love to sit here and say “yes, bring it on!” I honestly don’t know. I like my little bubble of comfort I am in. I know for a fact it would have to change. Change can be very uncomfortable. I also know that once I really step it up with God, that the Devil’s attacks will be strong too. As of right this second, I can’t think about taking any more attacks. But on that same thought, I feel like I am missing something in my life. I remember back to high school when God was the center of my life completely. I remember having that burning desire. I think a new goal for me is to set aside some time each day for prayer and devotions. I would also like for Robert and I to start praying together again. We’ll see how it all goes.
Time to start heading to bed. It is going to be another long week.