Ok, enough with the quizzes, time for a real update. I had another odd dream last night. I dreamt that I had driven to Chicago to visit a friend who went to a large university there. I got off the interstate and parked my car. I then started walking all over the campus looking for her, but never found her. I suddenly had a feeling of being very lost. I wandered around trying to remember where I parked and nothing looked familiar to me. I was following some train tracks, when the next thing I know, I’m in an airplane taking off. I was so worried about my car. I didn’t know where it was or how I would find it again. Then I woke up. I can’t help but wonder if this is in relation to my spiritual life. Robert and I talked last night before sleeping. I told him that I want to get back into a church, form a church family, and get my life back on track. However, There are some things in my life that I don’t want to give up, that I feel like I should in order for this to happen. So I am torn and don’t know what to do here. I want to go back to God, but I want it on my terms, which I know He wouldn’t look upon too well. but on the other hand, it would be a step in the right direction compared to where I’ve been for the past 2 years or so. I also told Robert that I would like for us to pray together. I know that it will be awkward at first, but it is something that I would like to do. He said he would be willing, which I greatly appreciate. So it seems like my life is going to undergo some changes in the near future.
This weekend I am going to head to Iowa to visit my grandparents. My grandpa’s health isn’t in the best condition, and it’s been a while since I’ve visited. Robert is going with me. 
I guess I’m just slowly preparing myself. My gut instinct is telling me that he won’t be around much longer. I don’t know how accurate this is, but I also don’t want any regrets when that time does come. I didn’t make it to the family Christmas, so it’s been almost a year since I last saw them.
However, it’s time for me to start some food. I’m hungry. Write more later.