Tonight we somehow started singing “Jump Around”. I can’t remember how we even got started. Robert then played the song on the stereo. He and Laura were having a great time dancing to it. Warren was laughing at the sight. I was just enjoying taking it all in. We then proceeded to play various dance songs from the 90s. It was loads of fun.
I spent some time getting things pulled together and packed tonight. The kids and I are heading to DeForest tomorrow morning for the week. I have the clothes packed, and most of the other stuff sitting out just waiting for bags. I may even start stuffing some bags full tonight yet. Right now Warren is getting cuddles/comfort from Robert. I want to keep it very low key until he is back in bed.
Warren’s sleep is slowly improving. He will wake up one time usually around 10 or 10:30. I typically don’t get up with him. We let him cry himself back to sleep. He is still waking up between 5 and 6 though (5:40 is a typical time). His naps during the day seem to be improving as well. Of course now we are heading out of town so everything will be messed up. At least Robert can get caught up on some sleep.
Speaking of sleep, I have gotten the results of my sleep study. Everything looked normal. No sleep apnea, nothing unusual. We did bloodwork to see if something was off there. I got the results in the mail yesterday. Everything is within normal ranges, no Lyme’s disease either. So I’m at a loss. I think I’m going to really work on getting to bed earlier. I am also hoping to start working out regularly. I don’t know if maybe my depression is starting to creep in or not. I figure it definitely can’t hurt to take 30 minutes to go for a walk or do something. Wish me luck!
I’ve been thinking lately about different family dynamics. There are some families where the siblings are always close. They always know what is going on with each other. I had always dreamed that I’d be apart of one of those families. The reality is that I’m not. I hardly ever talk to my brother. I know what is going on because of Mom. I will text Tamara once in a while. I know that it takes effort on both parts. I know that Tamara has a hard time truly opening up to people. I am the same way. Put the two together, and you have two people that like each other (At least I hope she likes me. I have no reason not to!), but have a hard time really getting to know each other. I don’t know what happened with John and I. I know that he will always be there for me if I need him. We just don’t talk regularly. I never know when a good time to call would be. He also isn’t like me where he can call and just chat about nothing for 30 minutes or more. Through all of this, I just hope that Tamara knows that she is a part of the family. I’m so glad that she and John got married. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful person as a sister-in-law. I hope that she feels truly welcome into the family, and not an outsider.
Time to head to bed. Tomorrow has potential to be a long day. I am hoping to be on the road by 9am at the latest.