I started this blog as a way to get thoughts out. It is becoming more of a journal of what everyday life is like. I want to try and get more thoughts out. I look back at some of my really old entries and I am amused by some of my thinking. It goes to show growth.
Work is going ok. We have some issues with some student workers, but they are getting worked out. I can’t name any names, but we will be letting one go soon. I should say that Jacky will be. She is the manager and it is her responsibility. The student does not have the availability that we require. I have a feeling that a few more will be leaving before the semester ends, and not due to graduation. It gets frustrating that they don’t have the work ethic that I feel they should. We have a few students that are just awesome to have. Unfortunately, we will be losing a few of them soon due to graduation. I don’t know when it will happen, but we will be having a meeting with our student workers regarding work ethic, policies, and expectations. I spent today getting invoices done. Tomorrow evening I will probably work on getting the Visa statement done. I really like to stay on top of that for two reasons. 1. It makes life so much easier doing it right away. There is less paperwork to get mixed up. 2. It makes our department look good that we do them immediately. I think that pretty soon we’ll start returning books.
Home life is still home. Laura has energy that seems to hardly run out. Warren goes hard all day until he just can’t go anymore. I can tell that both of them are missing their time with me. I try to not snap at them. I am run down with working so much. I was hoping that I’d get recharged this weekend. Unfortunately, that didn’t happen like I had hoped. Saturday was my scrapbooking day. I was able to get two pages done. Mandy is also fighting a cold. After our lunch break, we played a few songs on Rock Band, but then watched movies. That was exactly what I needed. I was able to chill and not have to worry about any little people. Sunday morning Robert took Laura to church while I stayed home with Warren. Warren took a nice nap, so I was able to rest on the couch and watch some of my recorded tv shows. I would have napped if I hadn’t gotten up at 8. Since I had slept so long I wasn’t ready for a nap at 9:30.
Things with Robert and I seem to be going ok. I say seem since I am not totally sure what he is thinking all the time. I have a habit of projecting my thoughts/feelings on to him, even though he doesn’t feel/think the same way I do. I look at myself and get frustrated with what I am doing. In turn, I feel like he is frustrated with me for those behaviors when in reality, he is totally ok with it. For example, I haven’t done much in the last week due to feeling miserable from my cold. I get frustrated with myself for the lack of ambition/things left undone. I then feel like Robert is unhappy with me for those same reasons. In reality, he understands and doesn’t mind taking up the slack for a few days. I feel like I am just rambling on now.
I am still eating low-carb. I made the decision this weekend that I am going to do a modified version of OWL (ongoing weight loss). Instead of adding a small food/food group each week, I am just going to start adding them all in. I will see how I respond over the next few weeks. If I still manage to lose weight, then I will maintain on this path. Part of the reasoning is that I am lost as to how to add the foods back in and in what order. Another reason is I am feeling like my choices are limited, and I want to expand them. There are times that Robert will find a really good sounding recipe, but I can’t have one or two of the ingredients yet. This way I can try the new recipe. I don’t want to give up the low-carb lifestyle. I can tell that it works for me and is making a difference. I am ready to really make it a lifestyle for me now and not just a diet. I am still not to where I want to be weight wise, but I am getting there. I figure as long as the numbers on the scale keep going in the right direction, then it is working.
Time to get a little girl through the bath.