Ok, so I guess it’s after midnight, but I can’t sleep. I have been awake since 2. THis is not my idea of fun. I am not totally sure why I can’t sleep. I have hit a point in my life where I am very happy. Things are all going well (could be better if I had a full time job, but I’m still happy). Have you ever had a time when things are going super for you, and you are so afraid it is a dream? I keep feeling like having this great house, having the awesome husband I do, and everything else in my life is just a dream, and I’ll wake up either in the old house, in the dorms, or back at my parents’ house and it has all been a dream.
I am the type of person that it is hard for me to make a really good, close friend. I make acquaintances easily, but it is hard for me to find someone that I can confide in, feel like I can call them up to go shopping or just hang out, whatever. I am starting to make more close friends in the area. It has taken a long time. College was nice because we were kind of forced together several times a week. However, when you are in “the real world”, it feels like all contact/communication is up to the people forming the friendship. Lives get very hectic, and it seems like it is hard to find time to really bond with someone. I am at fault just as much as the next person, maybe more. Just an observation I’ve made though.
This is a full weekend for us. On Saturday, my parents and my grandparents (mother’s parents) are coming up for lunch and maybe help do a few projects around the house. I have the 1st Annual Fall Festival at church that the Board of Ed (which I am on) is organizing. That is running from 4-8. I am sure I’ll be there later helping to clean up. I hope the weather warms up greatly for it ane the wind will die down. On Sunday, Robert and I are ushering at church at the 10:30 service. Afterwards, we are going up to Dallas for the day. We are helping load some cut wood into a device to transport it back to the house. We are also drawing names for Christmas this year with the Rust family.
I think that today (Friday) I will get my name in at Baldwin for subbing. I just am not getting enough days at SCC. Or if I do get days, they have been in special ed. I know I am good at it. I know I am the first choice by those teachers. However, it is not what I really want. I want to teach in a “regular” classroom. I say “regular” because I don’t think there really is a typical class. Every one has its quirks and idiosynchrisies.
I find it amazing that we are half way through October already. I remember having a hard time adjusting to 2006. It is going to be 2007 soon enough. Time seems to move faster the older I get. I see some of the kids that I student taught, and I can’t believe how old they are now. I realize it has only been 2 years, but I forget how much kids change in such a sort time span. This has been a good year, and something is telling me that next year is going to be even better. Seems like my life just keeps getting better and better, and I feel so lucky/blessed that I can say that. I know many people don’t have half of what I do, but are still making it and are happy. I get spoiled by what I do have and start expecting to have it all the time. Just one of my flaws I guess. 
Enough rambling from me for tonight/this morning. Time for me to unwind more and try to sleep again.
October 13th, 2006 at 3:38 pm
I swear, I read your posts, and its like someone is describing my life. (Minus the teaching thing i guess.) I feel that I’m going to wake up at any minute, and it will all be taken away from me. And I know EXACTLY what you mean about making really good friends. Man, I wish we lived closer. Have fun this weekend! Irving and I are having our own “Fall Festival” this weekend.. complete with pumpkin picking and apple pie. Mmmm. Talk to you soon!
-Kelley