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February

Awake

Here I am once again journaling in the wee hours of the morning.  Warren woke up at 1:00 to eat.  I haven’t been able to fall back asleep since.  Laura getting sick has really hit me harder than I thought.  It is so scary having your baby be sick and not being able to do anything about it.  I put on a good front, but I’m crumbling.  I’m getting worn down.  I have a short temper right now, and she needs me to be more patient.  I feel so bad.  I tried to give her her medicine tonight.  She spit out a good chunk of it and I snapped at her.  I ended up sitting on the floor, holding her down between my legs, opening her mouth with one hand, and pouring the medicine in with the other.  I felt so bad doing it to her, but I know that it will help her feel better in the long run (hopefully in the next day or two actually).

I am so ready for Warren to sleep through the night.  I am at a loss of what to do.  I’ve tried putting rice cereal in his bottle, I fed him solids tonight before bed, I’ve tried not feeding him and just getting him back to sleep.  I just don’t know.  I feel like such a rookie mom that my kid is 6 months old and not sleeping through the night.  I have no clue when or how long he will nap.  I never know how much he is going to eat at a time.  I hate not knowing!!!!!!

Robert came home from his meeting at church tonight.  He is now the chairperson, secretary, and council rep for the Deacons.  Considering that there are 5 other people on the board, I personally have a problem with this.  One of them needs to step up.  In defense of one person, she wasn’t there to volunteer.

I guess I should try to sleep.  Robert is working a full day today, so it is just me and the kids.


3 Responses to “Awake”

  1. Abbie Says:

    Hey there. I know you want Warren to sleep through the night heaven knows when Matt was that age so did I but and I hate to say this Matt did not sleep through the night till he was just short of turning a year old. Again not something you want to hear I know but he may just not be ready I really believe you can’t force it. Lizzie slept through very young but Matt was just not that way. At 6 months Matt got up once a night around 1am to eat sometimes twice a night. He went back to twice a night at 8 months for a while and I thought it was going to be the end of me. Finally around 9 months we started to have 2 or 3 nights in a row of sleeping all night and then magically around 10.5 months he started sleeping all night and has never looked back unless he is sick of course. It will come it will I promise!!!!!!! Its hard and well it sucks. :( Any ways I hope today goes well. I’m here if you need to talk. {{{hugs}}

  2. Liz Says:

    I can usually handle the once up during the night. It’s the nights where he is then up for 1.5-2 hours. I also get lots of people making comments about him not sleeping through the night. Makes me feel like a bad mom that way.

    Today isn’t looking too promising. I just fed Warren 5 ounces and all of it came up and then some. It wasn’t just spit up… it was full out projectile puking out of the nose and mouth. He has no fever though.

    Robert has offered to stay home, but I feel like even more of a failure when I can’t take care of my own 2 kids.

  3. Abbie Says:

    Well you know what those “people” need to shut up. Not all kids sleep through at 6 months and if they think its that easy well let them. Your not a bad mom and don’t let anyone make you think otherwise. I hope your day goes okay. I hope they both take good naps and you can get one too.

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