I can’t believe that my baby boy will be 5 months old tomorrow. It has gone so fast, and yet so slow some days. When we were staying at Grandma’s last weekendd, she made the comment about how he is at a difficult age. I didn’t think much of it until now. It is true. He wants to sit by himself, but he can’t. He is starting to play with things, but he still needs lots of help. He gets tired of being held all the time, but he also gets sick of his chair. He isn’t real crazy about the exersaucer. His eating habits have gotten weird lately. He will eat only 1 or 2 ounces at a time for several feedings. There is no way to get him to eat more. He has started to skip the 12:30 wake up and pushed it back to 2 or 3. He is still waking up between 5 and 6 a lot of days. I am just getting really frustrated. He will also start crying and nothing I do will comfort him. It is times like these that I question my decision to stay home with the kids. Then I remind myself that this too shall pass.
This morning I made the decision to start attending the adult Bible study at church. We are studying the Lord’s prayer and really learning what it all means. They meet at 9:15 on Sunday mornings (between services). I have missed doing a Bible study. I used to do them frequently. I thought it worked well for me to go, Robert brought both kids, then I came home with them while he cleaned up communion. It was really nice to do it that way today since there was someone there that wanted to talk to him about A/V equipment. I didn’t have to feel like I was rushing him. We sang one of my favorite songs in church today… Shine Jesus Shine. It is still playing through my head. :) Both kids are now napping. I would love to go downstairs and work on a scrapbook a bit, but I don’t think I’d hear Warren fuss. Maybe once Robert gets home I’ll go down there.
I am realizing that I love having Robert home on the weekends, but it makes things stressful for me at the same time. I have my routine with the kids. I know that when I am home with them, that it is up to me to get things done. However, with Robert home, things are different. I never know how much to ask him to do, or what he wants done. I feel like I push a lot of the child care on him, but at the same time it is my only break. Thankfully he is so good and hardly ever complains.
This coming week should be pretty quiet. I am hoping that I can get over to Helen’s to visit with her for a bit. Thursday night I have a class at Archiver’s with Mandy. Saturday morning we will drive down to Mom and Dad’s for our family Christmas. I am looking forward to seeing John again. I talked to him on the phone for a little bit yesterday which was nice.